i learnt something important at college

Siapapun

Untuk siapapun yang sebenarnya berbohong tentang hal itu dahulu, apapun faktanya buatku sudah tak berdampak lagi ..

:)

The Walk and The Work

Lately I work out a little bit. My internist suggested me to exercise 15 minutes a day when i got better. I think i am getting better so I have started to do it two days ago. Before I started, I browsed a little bit to know what to do. Not also wanting to be healthy, I wanna get thinner too. Hehehe. I do diet, a little calisthenics, and some work out. My physiology lecturer gave me some advice too. 

First, for breakfast i eat fruits because it can resist hunger more. Then, I walk in the morning or afternoon for at least one hour. I park my car a little far from the usual (so I can walk), I don't use the AC in my room for long so I can sweat. Just little things yet so matter.

The web i read said that in order to be more fun and not lonely when we're jogging or walking, we can bring our mp3 player

I actually have gotten used to walk alone, yet I still bring it. I usually replay Nothing in My Way by Keane. 

 Yesterdays, i took some pictures too. Here they are

 Someone planted these trees about for years ago maybe.... They grow so fast

 A way to the gate. If you can see, there's my apartment that i miss so much :")

 One of the best kampung in Surabaya, kampung sebelah ini --, :)))

 The lovely path walk ...

 Dawn....

 Sometimes you have to stop just to tie your shoes, not for long, then move on

 Perumahan sebelah :))

Someone loves sky and shady road

Unreached goal :)))

My parents followed me to walk in the dawn, tapi akhirnya aku ketinggalan tapi dapet foto ini ciyeh (di sawah belakang perumahan)

wedding song

Lately, I enjoy listening to wedding songs or love songs that really have deep meanings. I don't know why, maybe by listening to it i feel loved :") (melasnyaaa) hahaha JK.
There are some songs which are in my playlist that i listen to it frequently these times:
1. Jon Mclaughlin - A Song You Might Here in A Wedding
Even the title shows that you might here this song in a wedding :))  

"But if tomorrow you're gone. And I still go on. I promise to.....Spend the rest of me on you."

2. Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah
This song, I think it's about a young boy promising a commitment to his girl. I found it so cute and sweet. 

"Hey there Delilah, I know times are getting hard. But just believe me girl, someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar. We'll have it good, we'll have the life we knew we would. My word is good"

The word is indeed good  
3. Justin Timberlake - Mirrors
Hhhh, i don't think I need to explain this song because we all know how beautiful it is. Finding and loving someone who reflects and perfectly matches you. What I really like about wedding songs actually is the lyrics that show about caring and helping the spouse.

"'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul. I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go. Just put your hand on the glass. I'll be tryin' to pull you through. You just gotta be strong"

4. Fire House - Here For You
As I am someone that actually frequently spends my time alone back then. I like this song so baaad. 

"I am here for you, always here for you. When you're needin' someone to hold you. Remember I told you, I am here for you, I am here for you"

Sweet, knowing someone will be there alwasy for you :)

5. James Morrisson - I Won't Let You Go
Just one sentence ... 

"You don't have to be alone"

6. OneRepublic - Something I Need
This soooooong, wkwkwkw, really really tricky boy. Yet, sweet and interesting. 
First, Ryan sings 

"You got something I need. in this world full of people there's one killing me

And if we only die once I wanna die with you"

and he repeats it in the chorus. then...slowly....in the end 

"If we only die once I wanna die with
If we only live once I wanna live with you

:)))))))) 
7. Ada Band - Masih (Sahabatku, Kekasihku)
Aaah, sweet title huh :))) Old song, but still lovely to listen

"Walau badai menghadang, ingatlah ku kan slalu setia menjagamu.Berdua kita lewati jalan yang berliku tajam.Resah yang kau rasakan, kan jadi bagian hidupku bersamamu.Letakkanlah segala lara di pundakku ini.."

Clearly ! A wedding song ! 

8. The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build A Home
Nothing to say, just read it, listen to it, and imagine.....

There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home.

And I built a home
for you
for me

Until it disappeared
from me
from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed its knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
Held on as tightly as you held onto me
Held on as tightly as you held onto me......

And I built a home
for you
for me

Until it disappeared
from me
from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

New Love (?)

Yey akhirnya posting blog lagi. Kemarin-kemarin rempong sama tugas-tugas yang nggak berkeprimanusiaan TT (Sekarang juga sih tapi udah mendingan)

Yesterday was my first day for my piano course in Ahmad Dhani School of Rock(ADSOR). I was so happy that finally i got a chance to learn piano. It was actually my internist and my mom who always encourage me to do what i wanna do and what i love to do. Back then, i tried to be a kpoper which actually worked for almost half a year ! Worked for my illnesses not to come back. But you know, i got bored very easily. Now, i chose playing piano and something secret mwehehehe. And i am still looking for more love to feel also <3 Things to love, i mean. Not someone to love. :p Got plenty already (Family, friend, and...someone who might read this also ! xixixixi) 

I am still learning bout fingering for piano. Yesterday i learned Titanium by David Guetta. My teacher(whose name i don't know and forgot to ask TT) told me that i had to sing too but i was just laughing. He told me that we would learned jazz in the future. I was so exciting because my Dad love jazz and i love my Dad :D (?) However for this month, we will learn to play sad songs only :( I am allergic to sadness,Sir !!! In piano i found it quite hard because i have two tiny hands and short fingers. But i am still exciting bout it. 

I don't know when exactly was it and i am not gonna count the days. I was so sad bout something. I am not gonna write it here hehehe. I even didn't wanna talk bout it even to myself. My internist and my mom won't let me be sad and depressed for sure. But now maybe i can be a little open to talk about it to my close friend to share because i think my health is getting better in time. Alhamdulillah. Yet i am not gonna think about it too deep anymore. I am still having some healing process to go through. And moreover, My God forbids me to be sad. :") Sorry God ... Astaghfirullahhaladziim

.........وَلَا تَهِنُوا۟ وَلَا تَحْزَنُو

Dan janganlah kamu merasa lemah dan janganlah kamu bersedih hati 

QS Ali Imran[3]:139 

So, Tenang aja  :) 

(like someone always says)

Student Day

          Saat ini saya baru saja menginjakkan kaki ke dunia perkuliahan. Saya sekarang ini sedang menempuh studi kuliah di Universitas Airlangga Fakultas Psikologi. Seperti mahasiswa baru pada umumnya, saya pun menempuh ospek yang diselenggarakan BEM. Di Universitas Airlangga ada dua macam ospek, pertama PPKMB Universitas yang diselenggarakan BEM-KM UA dan PPKMB Fakultas yang diselenggarakan oleh BEM Fakultas. Kedua kegiatan itu diselenggarakan berurutan. Setelah itu, kami mahasiswa baru Fakultas Psikologi masih disambut dengan suatu kegiatan yang diselenggarakan setiap hari Sabtu yaitu, Student Day. 

         Student Day(setelah ini disingkat SD) diselenggarakan selama empat minggu yang diawali di minggu pertama dengan pra-SD. Namun sayangnya satu minggu dari pra-SD sampai SD 1 saya menderita sakit yang sudah lama saya punyai. Bahkan di minggu pertama kuliah pun saya hanya masuk dua hari dan setelahnya sakit lagi dan dengan sangat disayangkan saya tidak dapat mengikuti SD2. Namun, saya tetap berusaha mengerjakan tugas-tugas SD yang diperintahkan panitia bersama teman-teman saya sekelompok maupun tidak. 

       Tugas-tugas SD 2013 yang kami kerjakan antara lain membuat keplek, drama, essai diri, buku interaksi, interaksi dengan 112 warga kampus psikologi, makalah PKM, studi lapangan, review berita, dan mengumpulkan empat eksemplar koran di tiap SD.

      Di dalam SD ini ada fastor yang membantu kami sebagai maba untuk memberi infromasi dan membimbing. Ada pula Komdis yang mendisiplinkan kami jika kami melakukan kesalahan. Saya yang tidak mengikuti SD 2013 ini pun harus mengerjakan tugas pengganti sebagai konsekuensi dan pertanggungjawaban saya yang telah menyetujui peraturan. Saya ditugaskan untuk bertanya tentang SD tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Saya pun bertanya kepada Kak Ricko ketua SD 2011.

       Kak Ricko mengaku mengetahui SD dari tahun 2005. SD adalah suatu kegiatan untuk menyambut mahasiswa baru di Fakultas Psikologi. Tentu tidak hanya asal menyambut, SD juga mempunyai tujuan untuk kebaikan para mahasiswa baru tersebut. Tujuan atau esensi dari SD tergantung oleh tema yang diangkat oleh SD di setiap tahunnya. Di saat tahun 2011 masa kepemimpinan Kak Ricko, SD bertemakan Passion yang mengajak para mahasiswa baru untuk berani mengerjakan apa yang diinginkannya sebagai passion-nya. Namun secara universal, SD diadakan untuk mempersiapkan dan mengenalkan masa perkuliahan itu sendiri. Sejak dulu SD diadakan di akhir pekan memang bertujuan agar tidak mengganggu aktivitas akademik dan hal tersebut adalah anjuran dari pihak dekanat. Kegiatan yang ada di dalam SD juga mempunyai tujuan-tujuan khusus. Contohnya, review film yang bisa membuat kita mengerti hikmah dibaliknya. Refleksi yang dilakukan dengan fastorpun juga bertujuan agar kita selalu mendapatkan esensi dari setiap kegiatan dan kadang permasalahan diri. Konsekuensi jika melakukan kesalahan pun diberikan agar mahasiswa baru belajar bertanggung jawab. 

     Ospek Fakultas Psikologi memang sejak tahun 1998 tidak pernah ada yang namanya perploncoan. Koran Kompas pun telah membuat berita tentang hal ini. Perploncoan ditakutkan mengakibatkan efek rotary yang akan membuat hal itu diturunkan pada angkatan selanjutnya. Hal itu juga dikira tidak ada gunanya dan Fakultas Psikologi membuat hal yang lebih positif.  Tugas dan kegiatan dalam SD pun disetiap tahunnya da yang tetap sama yang bersifat universal, ada juga yang berbeda-beda sesuai tema.

     SD diketuai oleh seseorang dari angkatan atas dua tahun yang telah dipilih. Steering Committee yang mengonsep acara pun juga. Operating Committee dipilih dengan Open Recruitment. Acara SD telah dipikirkan dan dirancang setelah BEM baru telah terbentuk, biasanya 3-4 bulan sebelum acara SD itu sendiri. Jadi, saya bisa membayangkan jika mahasiswa baru lelah menjalani SD, panitia pun sebenarnya bisa jadi lebih lelah lagi. Namun hal itu teteap kita lakukan bersama untuk kebaikan.

Ngomongin Jodoh di 18

Bahasa santai aja yaaak

Prolognya nih, aku delapan belas tahun dan temen-temenku juga kebanyakan umur segituan. Udah cocok belum sih ngomongin ini ? Tapi kayanya uda kudu mulai deh... 18++

Ibu si A : " Hah ? Awakmu tenanan pengen kawin aaaa ? (Hah? Apa kamu bener2 pengen nikah?)

si A       :"Iyo bu..." (Iya bu)

denger temenku se geng cerita tentang percakapannya sama ibunya itu aku langsung ngakak. Dia waktu itu masih 18 tahun, aku 17 tahun. Ya....ngakak aja. Apalagi kita sama geng kita itu udah jelas singlenya(single aja jangan jomblo yak). Katanya sih dia itu bener-bener kesepian, bahkan kadang kalo nyetir terus berhenti di lampu merah suka wondering apa jodohnya juga di situ. hehehe

Kalo temen-temen cewek mah emang dari kebanyakan udah mikir jodoh bukan sih ?

Kalo cowok katanya kadang wondering tapi yaa...gak berkelanjutan gitu

Kalo aku.. 

Aku sih juga bisa dibilang sering, tapi kayanya dulu-dulu sebelum UNAS gitu ya ... kadang juga buat bercandaan doang ngomonginnya. Kadang temen-temen cowok juga sering nanya kriteria gitu bukan sih ? Haha, yaaa dijawab aja pake pikiran naif.

Sekali lagi... aku 18 tahun

dan mulai kaget. 

Ibu Bapak tuh udah nanya-nanyain "Kamu sekarang sama siapa ?" , "Deket sama siapa? , "Apa ada temen cowokmu yang juga kuliah di kampus yang sama?" blablabla 

Kakak juga nanyain gitu juga, kadang sampe "Yah..Mbak doain ponaanmu dapet om yang baik yaaa" (Aamiin)

Terus tadi juga waktu ke akademik ngurus ijin gamasuk kuliah nih ada percakapan yang harusnya emang dengernya biasa aja (ya ga sih?)

Bapak C : "He kamu kan si B?"

Si B        : "Iya pak"

Bapak C : "Loh kok ndak pernah kelihatan di kampus?"

Si B        : "Ya aku kan abis ngelairin Pak...."

(Percakapan berlanjut tentang anak si mbak B ini..)

Aku cuma bengong ngeliat mbaknya yang masih muda dan...kurus...

Lanjutnya aku....Berjalan gamang..

Temen-temen cewek juga udah pada takut "Waduh... aku lo udah umur segini belum punya pacar, takut gapunya pegangan, nanti dapetnya lama :(" gitu-gitu udah sering banget lah ya dicurhatin....

Bahkan nih bukan dari temen cewek aja.... Ada cowok yang bilang

"Mbari ngene wes wayahe... Wes 18+.... Wes kudu serius" (Habis ini udah waktunya, udah 18+.. Harus udah serius)

Aku dengernya jelas kaget. Tapi itu malah kaya lebih nyadarin daripada omongan temen2 cewek yg sebelumnya tadi, hehe soalnya cewe udah keseringen sih..

Kalo aku sendiri, secara serius, bisa jawab apa :)

Nunggu aja nanti siapa yang berani ke orangtua, nanyakin gitu hehehe. 

Kalo tipe, pasti ada, tapi jangan perfeksionis ah. Kata dosen filsafat aja kita ada yang mau udah untung tuh. Haha tapi kan dia itu udah pilihan Tuhan, masa sih Tuhan salah milih nantinya ? Nggakmungkin kan... Tapi menurutku segimanagimana , "dia" yang belum kita recognize atau bahkan realize itu(soalnya kalo belum kita temukan pun belum tentu) segimanapun dia, dia itu harus yang kita cintai...

.......................

 Dan di antara tanda-tanda (kebesaran)-Nya ialah Dia menciptakan pasangan-pasangan untukmu dari jenismu sendiri, agar kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan Dia menjadikan di antaramu rasa kasih dan sayang. Sungguh, pada yang demikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda (kebesaran Allah) bagi kaum yang berpikir.

QS Ar Ruum:21


So.... ? ;)

Then how am i supposed to feel ?

"The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad.

   You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and not cry..and smile..and go

 'No, I'm happy for you' ?

That's when it's really sad." 

John Mayer 

500 Days of Summer Review

500 Days of Summer

                Classical romance movies can be found anywhere at anytime these days. Even just a few clicks on our tv remote we can watch one of it. But sometimes love stories are just a love story, knowing, being close, and getting attached to each and some problems are enclosed. Then i found this one is quite different from others. People always think this film is about a love story, even though the narrator said “This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.” 500 Days of Summer by a genius Marc Webb.

                Telling about Tom Hansen, someone who really believed in an idea of a true love. He thought that he’d never be really happy until the day he met the one. Tom radar’s caught Summer Finn, his boss’ assistant. He thought Summer was the one for his life in the first time he met her. Summer was an idenpendent girl and someone who couldn’t be tied by commitments.

                Firstly, Tom didn’t believe in his heart. He kept avoiding Summer until he found out that Summer had some things in common with him. It encouraged him to get closer with her. Unfortunetly Summer wasn’t looking forward to getting attached to someone. They got theirselves in a friend zoned kind of relationship for a quite long time.

                Suddenly, Summer said that what they had been doing was not right. Tom was  startled and said that he was happy being with her.

                “Aren’t you happy ? I’m happy.”said Tom

However Tom’s happiness wasn’t Summer’s.  This could be and could not be said as a breaking up part because Tom and Summer was never really in a relationship. Tom heart was cruelly torn apart. He got so depressed until he made his bestfriends and sister worried. Yet still Tom wanted to get Summer back, but then Summer moved to another city. Tom got more shattered then he decided to sign out from his job.

               

“ Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. May 23rd was a Wednesday.”

 Tom was sitting on a park bench when suddenly Summer came over. Summer said that she was already married. Of course he was shocked because she never believed in love.

“ I just... I just woke up one day and I knew. “

“Knew what?”

“What I was never sure of with you. “

Tom couldn’t say anything but wished Summer a happy life. Then Tom walking to an office to apply a job as a architect, his real dream. Arriving in the office he met a girl. A girl that said that she often saw Tom in some places but Tom didn’t realize. A girl that said that Tom hadn’t been really looking. A girl named,autumn.

                Firstly, viewers were directed to imagine their own plot of this movie but then they’re amusingly surprised that the plot they’d made were wrong. Marc Webb made this story very light to accept but rich of contents and moral values. The dialogs were brought casually but implicitly deep. That’s why i put some of them in  this review.

                I thought this movie is different also because the plot was going forward then backward then forward again, but still understandable. It started on the 488th day of “Summer” and ended on the 1st day of “Autumn”.

                Joseph Gordon Levitt as Tom Hansen starred this movie perfectly. He could act his part like he was really feeling it. Beautiful actress Zooey Deschanel could be Summer Finn perfectly too. Their chemistry in this movie were what made it was really nice to watch also.

However i still believe that the director Marc Webb and the writers Scott Neudstadter and Michael H. Weber are geniuses behind this movie.  Marc who was really experienced by creating many well known music videos made this movie really epic and   Scott with Mike really made a genius high class literature in its dialogs.

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Some glimpses of the movie

source : google.com

just a quote

"It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. " Sam - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

by The Genius, Paulo Coelho

This novel tells about a girl named Pilar and her first love. They had been separated for eleven years. And when she found him, he was a handsome and charismatic spiritual leader.

There are some of my favorite quotes...

"Falling from the third floor is as painful as falling from the hundredth floor....If I must fall may it from a high place." 

“In real life, love has to be possible. Even if it is not returned right away, love can only survive when the hope exists that you will be able to win over the person you desire.” 

"May my tears flow as far as it can , so my love will never know that one day i have cried for him"

“If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering”  

"I want to ask about something. Something that i haven't asked since we met."
"Is that a serious question?"
"Really serious."     "Here it is: where are we going?"
We both laughed
"Zaragoza." he replied with relief 

There are actually more quotes that i like. If i typed it, i would retype the whole book. hehehe
Paulo Coelho wrote many simple dialogs that carve deep meanings like the last quote i mention.
Please don't see them from the romance side only,  they mean more than it.

 

The confusion

I just don't know how strong i am
I just don't know how hurt i am

But if you think i'm weak, i think you're wrong

Missing You Again

The life has to be lived
The happiness has to be realized
The sadness has to be pushed, buried, deeply
I am, myself just like you, living it excruciatingly sometimes
with some denied exhaustion and boredom

When things seem torturing
When dreams are just so exorbitant to afford
When people to hold on are just too out of reach
I'm just missing You so much
I always miss You
I always miss missing You
Your love and grace never ends and got me overwhelmed

The best thing is I know You always see me and care

Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang “Aku” maka (ketahuilah) bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdo’a apabila berdo’a kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah-Ku) dan hendaklah mereka itu beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran ( Al Baqarah: 186)

Kita saja jika menyayangi seseorang, lalu orang itu harus pergi
Kita sangat ingin mereka cepat kembali dengan sehat, bahagia, dan apapun dengan baik
Apalagi Tuhan, Tuhan yang mencintai kita lebih dari ibu kita mencintai kita
Tuhan ingin saat kita kembali pada-Nya , ke sisi-Nya dengan sebaik-baiknya
selamanya dalam keadaan baik
masuk ke dalam surga-Nya yang dimuliakan
Jadi sebagaimanapun kita harus berusaha agar saat kita kembali, kita kembali dengan keadaan baik

I,myself try to always remember that i have to fight for it